STEVIE THE PANICKED GERMAN FEMALE CALLER
"uninhibited, happy, free / kooky, crazy, fun / an appreciator of life,
loves and lives / bears scars of victimhood / self-inflicting if
necessary / a babe who doesn't know it / loves tragedy / spontaneous,
boundless fire / sweet as pie and a wolverine temper / oblivious to the
obvious / disarming and meaningful / the most beautiful person I've
ever met" (lance waterman)
One night, a PANICKED GERMAN FEMALE CALLER captivates the community
with a painful story about a sexy "Smoke Jumper" (a mysterious and
super real alpha male). Everybody in town is listening to the program
and nobody is quite sure what to say.
She tries to achieve happiness through true love. She believes in open
relationships and that one can love more than one person at once,
because there is an unlimited amount of love flowing within you. She
wants to explore love, but doesn't believe there is a perfect match.
She rather thinks that different people touch different pieces of one
self and if you would stop looking you never truly find out what you
are searching for or how far you can go. Believing this, she was wide
awake, curiously looking into the world.
One day the smoke jumper crosses her path. For the first time in her
life she feels her and another body in complete perfection. When Stevie
meets Lance, there is no past, no future, only the present. They walk
the moon together.
He too has multiple relationships. It seems to be the perfect match.
Soon the beautiful concept breaks apart. Nobody wants to share the
smoke jumper. All his women want to own him. He decides to commit to
one of the women he is seeing, still having affairs, keeping Stevie as
That's when Stevie falls apart. Panicking. Still sometimes they have
sex. Together they meet another woman and all three of them start to
fool around with each other. By now Stevie has fallen deeply in love
with Lance and is feeling she could not survive without him. Maybe
after all there is a perfect match? Lance's relationship with the other
collapses, which hardens him up. He stops seeing his other affairs, but
his relationship with Stevie and the new girl, Fia, is still alive. Not
light and beautiful as Stevie and Lance's relationship in the beginning
but brutal at times, hurtful to all. They don't understand why they are
going down that road. Finding a much darker space then what both of
them had set out to find. Sometimes, rarely though, they still find
moments of peace, light and beauty. After the dark spaces these moments
seem even more exquisite. One night nearly ends in a catastrophe. The
next morning he leaves.
She still feels his presence but she never sees him around anymore. All
that is left for Stevie is the memory and her broken heart.
To be healed Stevie has sex with strangers.