All those trips to the Container store and Costco and BJ's were a great way to distract herself from the emptiness that was her life. The closets are organized, there are enough pampers and paper towels and baby wipes to last three lifetimes and she will never run out of paper towels or family size SHOUT stain removal. But her marriage is over and the baby is walking and what will she do with all those paper products? What is a person to do when the time on her hands makes the cracks from loneliness seem certain to collapse the frame her life is hanging from? Marrying Jake was a coarse to steer. Leaving Jake was a course to steer. But those projects are over (like re-papering the bathroom and re-doing the baby's room). She needs a project. There is a hole that fills with sadness if you don't stay busy. Everybody knows that. But matter how tight you squeeze the sadness out of your life, it fills back the second you let go.